Friendship is describe by "SanWIKI" as: "Relationship of mutual affection between two or more people." My own description for it, is that "Friendship" Is the one that you can count on it, maybe close like a bestfriend, not just the relationship you have with any friend.
We all have Friends, but I think (I hope) we all also have this times when we think we don't have true friends, because they did something wrong and you start asking if they even like us.
Now (Well, from a while now) I have been feeling that way from my two "Closest Friends". so i began to cuestionate the "Friendship" term, because, I don't have that really good friend that I tell all my secrets and stories blablabla, at least not near and this friendship I though I had with this girls is just a fake stupid lie from my self and theirs.
So I wrote something in my diary when I was kinda mad in the morning because it pisses me off that I have to put my nicest face just to fit in, but I actually have felt for sooo long that i don't belong in this group anymore (but if I reject it, I also loose the whoole group and there is still some people that I like there, mostly man because they are much more easy to talk and hag without expecting to have a friendship, we just take care of eachother).
This is what I wrote in the moring.
"We went to party out and I just realize I won't ever belong there, with this two strangers who think I trust them just because we've hang a few times at the GYM or in some of our houses...
Well NO! Life doesn't come that way you know?
No one wants to be a friend with two people who talk to each other their secrets while you are standing 2 meters away, alone and looking at them because they just don't include you.
Plus when you are partying with them in a big group of friends (the kindof that you go out with because you have a great time, not because you tell them your stuff ) this two people don't even care if you are walking, alive, if you got lost or what ever. "
Don't get me wrong, I do have friends like the ones you hang out with, and also I have a Bestfriend (that doesn't live in my country) but I just think some times friendships are really overrated by us, we think if we don't have this "Innercircle" we won't fit and people will start worrying about you, but that is not true, If you don't have this friendship close it just means that you haven't found it yet, or you have it somewhere else like in my case. So don't get desperate because everything comes in the right moment at the right place.
The Ugly and Beautiful trut
-TUABT.
